The Moment

Seems like I am always seeing some sort of message that stresses the importance of living in the moment. Cast aside the before and after, life is what you are living right this second, that sort of thing. All the way back to the Latin "carpe diem", which I used to have printed on a shirt, but it shrank, and so I lost the ability to wear that little reminder. It's not a bad notion, I just have trouble making it fit into the real world. Seems like I'm always trying to undo or outrun the mistakes of my past. And it also feels like the future I envision cannot take shape because I don't have enough control over other people's choices. So it is rare that I am content in the moment.